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Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Do you ever contemplate in life?.. I do. It is not about when you have nothing to do.. merely referring to those time where you feel like life has lost its meaning and reaching to the point where you want to change your life to the better but it is not something that happens overnight. I learn that life isnt always fair. You dont always get what you think to deserve and that sometimes bad things happens and there are days when you get up in the morning and things are not the way you had hoped they would be. The cards that I have been dealt with in my life are of a humble, struggling upbringing. I did not have the fortune of most other kids growing up. There were times in my upbringing that I missed out on things that other children or family would call the norm. Times were hard and life is a hurdle that I must oppose to thrive in challenges. Those times ingrained in me a yearning to never give up because at that moment that I choose to embrace whatever life has to offer that is the moment I have just begun to live. As they used to say, the world is not all sunshine and rainbow and it is a very nasty place and if you let it, it will beat it to your knee and you'll be there permanently.
Regardless of what happened, I refuse to acknowledge defeat. The day my life turned around was the day I woke up and said I’ve had enough! At that point when my attitude changed, and life really picked up for me - after all, what is life without a battle, challenge, pain and trials? I would call it no life.. victory, compassion and things will come to easy. Life was meant to be that way. It is real and it is hard. I have no other choice but to keep on moving forward. This spirit, the will to live and the acknowledgement of pain in life has made me a better person. I learnt that the only thing I can really count on is the unexpected. I don’t want to be coward in life. I don’t want to point fingers and blaming the past, I accept people as they are and to overlook every shortcomings and a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness. I learnt that God isn’t punishing me or failing to answer my prayer - it’s just life happening. I learnt to be thankful for what I have and never betray myself and I would never ever settle for less that what my heart’s desire. My journey is to keep my trust and to stay open to every wonderful possibility along with my faith in Him I begin to design the life I want to live as best as I can..
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Great to hear from you.At least I knew you're still happy and healthy there..
I love your new layout.It was so 'you'...I mean so feminine,friendly and comfortable to view.
I knew what you meant in this post.Everyone do,I think..But most important is we must be brave to explore everything in front and take past as a life experience.Am I right？
Sorry for my long hiatus mode.
But lazy too blog on my dissapearing hehe..thank you 4 stopping by :) '
Well you know if I have been lazy for that long and when i come back to my blog, I need some fresh page to start thats y i change my background few times just to get some new feelings *ewah* haha
Sometimes Jose maybe i think too much thats y I post on what I felt at that time so when I dont really have any idea what to talk about so I just blog about my reflection..my childhood time..thank you 4 being here..You are one good fren :)